Right here right now..

28/07/2009

his 2nd day of vacation

and also 2nd day i dint hear his voice

missing him damn much

not even a message from him today

at least yesterday he still send me few messages

but not today=(

although i sent him twice today

no response from him at all

i knew that he wont reply

if its me..i dont think i will reply too =D

tell myself dont think much and wait

waiting for you right here right now

keep making myself busy so that i wont think much

after came back from school straight away

go to work till at night..FUHH..

same goes for tomorrow..

hopefully by tomorrow i will receive your message asap

MISSYOU

*will be alright after my boy come back from his trip

Miss you my baby boy~~

i miss you so much boy

was wondering what you doing right now

enjoying?

eating?

playing?

today is the 1st day you at redang..

wednesday only come back...

i felt so long..time pass by extremely SLOW..=.=

cause you far from me..

but you ll always in my heart

wanted to call you but i guess you re enjoying with your friends

so better just keep it to myself

miss you silently without knowing

i still remember what you told me yesterday night

'i wish tomorrow is the day i go australia'

well..he is leaving me in few months time

just for the seek of his studies

*exactly the same as my ex

i dont hope he ll leave me like how my ex leaved me

with the reason of STUDY!

i dont hope you will follow his foot step bi

its REALLY hurt!!

you promised me will leave me without break!

i ll remember this and i hope you will keep to your promise too

every single word that you told me

i always bear in my mind

cause you always my beloved one's

LOVEYOU

*right here waiting for you to come back*

Trustworthy!!

early in the morning

hoping for my baby message but too bad its from my ex

received his message at 3A.M

too bad i slept off already

asked me

'why eddie at poppy?'

i knew eddie at poppy cause he told me early already

saying that he was holding a pretty girl hand whole night inside poppy

i was like........

???

im super HOT at that moment

i straight away sms my boy and 'washed' him few times without knowing te truth

im that kind of hot tempered person

im sorry baby..i dont mean to scold you

im just too worried that i ll lost you one day

I TRUST that you wont do such thing to me

its so hard for me to catch your heart

so i wont just let you go so easily

i get to know the TRUTH from winjun

anyway thanks winjun for explaining everything from head to toe

sometimes things that we dont know better than know

for me

close one eye better than open it both

we will get more benefit and feel much better

=)

agree with me?

so now im ok with everything i promised my boy wont be so hot tempered

and most important trust him

so i have prove it to him!

=)

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TRUSTWORTHY IS THE MOST IMPORTANT

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and so i choosed to close up my eyes and let thing flow naturally

=)

Photoshoot again..=D

Photoshoot Part 1

Photographer-kensim[trust me-he is good]

Assistant-coco liew=p

Make up-mayc[me] =D

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A special thanks to kensim who find me for this photoshoot

he is really a great photographer

salute=D

not forgotten coco liew who willing to accompany me for this shoot

she is really a good friend of mine

thanks alot

hope will have more shoot in the future..=D

coming up more photos

in the progress of editing

hold on there yea..

=)

extremely sad!!

This is an extremely sad post

you cant read my mind

so do i

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i love you

but

do you really love me?

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what can i do to make you happy?

what can i do to make you stay with me?

what can i do to make you love me?

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for me

letting me go

is a sign off leaving me soon

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i can tolerate you

but not everytime

cause i do have feelings too

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when you quiet

i feel lonely

when you shut up

i feel f**k up

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i dont understand you well

same goes to me

i dont know what you need

so do i

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i hate you

but

i love you

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how i treat you back

based on how to treat me

you deserved it!

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decision is in your hand

hand off or love me

its up to you
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think properly

think wisely

think twice

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no regret

no doubt

no nothing!!

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*first time ever since my ex broke up with me*

Happy birthday babe wenwen..

LOOK..who is this?

oh yea..my babe..hehe..

04/07 was her birthday..

Happy birthday to you

hapi burday to eu

hapie burfdae to u..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..=)

love you babe..muaxx..=x

one big happy family..heee..sweet yea?

love them so much..muaxx

candice-mayc-bB-anne-wen-wei

stupiak face?

lol..cant even see my eyes..haha

bB's idea..

she said wana do boxing..haha..

out of no way..=.=

LOL

i look shocked?lol

hahaha..everyone's ribbon on their head but mine?

on my neck..

haha..

seems like retarded..

hahaha

BABE wen wen..

WE lub you so muchie..

wish you have a great day with us today..

although i just can accompany you awhile..

*there is still another shoot of sticker pictures but not with me..=p

sadness and sorrow..

Once AGAIN mayc not in mood

start my emoness again

what's actually bothering me nowadays?

anyone can tell me?

the answer is NO

this cannot be..

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Mayc dont want this kind of feeling anymore

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is there really someone who willing to listen to me?

i really dont know why i becoming so emo

relationship?

YES

friendship?

NOT REALLY

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additional with cassi songs that he sent me just now

i love his songs so much

played by his own..

Title:

unknown piece

grief&sorrow

really touched my heart by his songs

thanks alot cassi..

i knew that i shouldn't listen those songs when im in emo emotion

but i cant control myself

whenever i blog i sure turn on sentimental songs

or when im not in mood just like now

i start with my rubbish talk again

i will stop it here

no mood to blog anymore

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enjoying songs sent by cassi

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