loneliness~~~

loneliness~~~

covering my whole life~~~

suffering in my life~~~

i dont wana be alone~~~

im scared to be alone~~~

afraid of darkness in my life~~~

hope my life would be more colourful in some other day~~~


christmas=[not celebrating]
new year=[not celebrating]

being too faithful...

what can i do to make you stay?
what can i do to make you care about me?
what can i do to make you love me?
what can i do to make you satisfied?
what can i do to make you be by my side?
what can i do to make you stop clubbing?

the answer is:NOTHING THAT I CAN DO!!

i knew something which im not suppose to know..
sometimes i feel that i dono better than know..
once i know about it my heart will keep bleeding..
anyhow im not your gf anymore so you can do watever you like..
example went to clubbing wif gals n have FUN with them by kissing them n hug them..
you did that..i knew..
if you really want do so then just go ahead..
dont find me and talk rubbish with me..
dont tell my friend that you stil love me..
if you really still love me,you will think about me before you do something but too bad..
anyway,i hope you dont hang me but let me go..
maybe you let me go you will feel better and good for us..
dont hang me please..i feel so suffer..
i love you so much till now at last?
have you ever do something back?
the answer is NO!
you addicted to club..
no1 can help you except you urself..
i know you want to try something new..
maybe i being too faithful at last hurt back myself..
anyway enjoy your single life now..
i know you will feel much better than couple..
bi..take care..

i feel it back..

someone who i always wished him to come and meet me..
someone who i kept waiting all this while..
someone who i always miss..
someone who i love the most..
someone who i really love..
its you desmond mah..
you came and find me today..
i feel so suprize when i saw you once i close up de door..
even we talked just awhile but i feel so happy..
u kissed on my cheeks before you went off make me feel so warm..
thanks alot..
when i on my way back t home you called me again til i reach home cause you scared stranger will follow me..
i din know that you still so worried about me..
that time you were around my house..
so you decided to mit up awhile even just 10mins..
once i saw you my tears starts to 'rain'
i just cant control myself..
you cried on my shoulder..
you hug me tight..
you asked me not to cry..
i feel your love to me..
been long time dint feel it already..
you give me back the feeling that i lost it 2mnths ago..
can you please dun leave me anymore?
even we dint bk together but i just hope we can be like last tyme..
no arguement..
can we?

9/2

9/2

which is my birthday..

i dun wish to reach on tat day..

why cant i just stop de time?

i willing to b in 18 alwiz rather than 19..

evy yr i dint celebrate it..

tot tis yr i can celebrate it wif u bt u cant!

next year birthday would be my most unforgettable birthday...

de day tat u leave me in kl..

swollen!!

haiz...

stupid model..

useless de..

throw it awy beta.

i jz wan adjust de height of de model at my shp..

then it suddenly fell on my hnd n mk my hnd swollen lk pig hand..

swt....=.=

blue black purple dy..

haiz..

almost cry out tis mornin..

bt i jz kip quiet..

wash hair aso dam pain..

tats realy painful!!!!!

heart broken...

i have nothing to say....

i duwan to talk much as well...

i just know that my heart totally heart broken...

i saw something which im nt suppose to see it...

i saw it with my own eyes...

im too naive..

i cant give what you need...

i just hope you and her will happy ever after...

i just know my heart now broke into uncountable pieces..

dropping out tears because of you..

met up wif 5guyz!!!^^

wow...
im so hapi today tat i gt to met up wif 5 guyz..
which cm frm diff countries..
thre were frm singapore..canada n so on..
dey cm in my shp n buy clothes n dey try to b nc wif me..
1st of al dey mk a bet on me to guess hw old am i..
oli 2 guys correct n de others wrg n each of them nid to pay 10 bucks..
hhhaha..
mk a bet on me using $$...
al dey hv is jz $$$..
kip on askin me tis n tat mk me feel so hapi to chat wif them..
singaporean is NICE to chat wif!!^^
dey cm at 530 then i finish wrk at 6..
saw them at dwnstairs hangin arnd to buy sum stuff to go bk..
dey goin bk 2ml..
sad...
dey asked me to hv dinner wif them..
oh gosh!!tats great!!
we ate teppanyaki..
n dey hate it!!
cz oily..hahaha..
took alot of pic wif them..
bt dey hvnt send it to me tru facebook..
get to shppin wif them to buy stuff 4 their gf's..
help them to choose n bring them to de shop which suit them..
dey lk casual..
glad to met up wif them!hehe..
so frzly..
i realy enjoy wiff them evn awhile..
dey said wil kip in touch wif me..
hupfully dey wil kip their promise..
realy hup to them again 2ml 4 de last tyme..
wil miz u guyz alot..