Thursday, October 30, 2008

mood swing~~

today is 30th oct 2008..my bf went to clubbin wif his frz once mr..de last clubbin tat he went was on 23th oct 2008..i duno y he wan go so offen bt neway i trust him tat he wun du sumthn which is bd n nt gd..de purpose im lettin him go jz 2 gv him mr freedom n du wat he wan..if he realy changed his heart i aso cant du anythn bt jz accept de fact!he make my mood swing~~sad~~depressed~~feel dwn~~wat can i du??i wan him 2 accompany me bt he alwiz nt free cz he's tryin to mk himself bz by goin gym alwiz..he tryin to escape frm me..wat can i du then??jz follow wat he's duin..i jz wan him hapi..tat's al..dae by dae..waitin 4 his ans..no mr hapi blog..bt sad blog.been dwn 4 1 wik..ytd he told me tat he wil find me today after i finish wrk bt at last??he went to clubbin wif his frz n i walkin alone lk no whre..searchin 4 frz 2accompany me..haizz..is thre realy sum1 hu realy can accompany me??been long tyme alone walkin after wrk..duno whre 2 go..hv no way n place to go..realy hup tat he can spend sum time wif me..as wat he used 2 cal me last tyme which is 'ma fan ren'..troublemaker..tat name realy suit me..i alwiz gv him trouble..i miz his voice callin me 'ma fan ren'..i realy miz him alot..bi..if u gt read tis blog plz mk it clear..i realy trust u..i realy lub u deep in my heart..i hv no way to 4gt u o lettin u go by nw..i cant sty strong..im so weak..plz dun force me..i cant du it..i can tolerate u no matter hw u treat me bt hrdly to let u go..im sowie..4gv me plz...[I LUB U] [I MIZ U]

4 comments:

FriendlyFriend said...

Haiz..I am really sorry to say this and hope you wont get angry with me because this is what i think but your bf is an ass..he didnt appreciate you at all..
And why you call yourself useless and jerk..dont ever call yourself that..you have your own way of caring and if he cant get use to it, then he is really not your type..
What kind of bf that say wanna pick up his gf after work but instead of doing so, he went to club..really pathetic..shame on you dude..
Why he want to run from you and keep making you sad and miserable..
To be honest mayc..you deserve a better guy..but it is not what i can really say..love is blind anyway..
Sorry if i say something that you dont like..

MaYc said...

hmm..dun wry im ok wif it..nt oli u say so bt mny of my frz aso say i stupid..bt i dun listen to them..cz i ealy lub him so much..no matter hw he treat me i nid tolerate wif his attitude..he dint say wan fetch me after wrk bt he said wil find me after wrk bt at lst he msg me said tat he goin to club soon..tats de last msg he sent to me..i sad bt wat can i du??scold him??no i wun du tat..i wil jz kip inside my heart..

FriendlyFriend said...

I really feel sad for you..but i cant do anything if you that is what you want to do..

MaYc said...

hmm..yup i dy prepered 4 evythn..i noe anythn would happen so v cant predict wat wil hapen nx..i choosed tis way so i hv 2 sty tough n be strong in order to win bk his heart..guyz is lk tat..lub 2 ply arnnd..nt mature yet..